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Wednesday, February 9th, 2005
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10:24 am - Photobucket
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| Sunday, December 5th, 2004
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2:54 pm - depression?
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i don't really know whats going on right now in my life. I was talking to a friend of mine (brian) and he said maybe im depressed. I know hes not really the best person to go to about that stuff, but he knows me pretty well, so he could be right. i really don't know, maybe i just need to get out more. blah im so confused.
cate
current mood:  confused
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| Wednesday, November 10th, 2004
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6:55 pm
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this last month has sucked fell in love and had my heart broken. Guys suck ass.
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| Saturday, September 25th, 2004
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8:40 pm - ..
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1:53 pm
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I MADE MY FIRST QUIZ
current mood:  excited
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1:35 pm
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| Saturday, September 18th, 2004
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12:57 pm
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( quizzes )
very board should be cleaning or somthing, but im just too lazy
current mood:  lazy
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12:45 pm
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would be true if I could vote
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12:34 pm
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| Saturday, August 21st, 2004
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5:31 pm
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haven't made an entry in a while ive gotten really busy with tennis and scuba lessons. Luckly we have the final scuba exam on thursday then im done since im not doing my open water dives with them. Im going to go to Grand Cayman with my family and do my 4 dives then i will be able to dive when ever I want haha.
right now im in a bad mood because girls are so stupid. they will do anything to get what we want and it doesn't matter who they hurt in the proccess.
13 days till im 16!!!!!!!!!!!
current mood:  bitchy
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| Sunday, July 18th, 2004
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9:18 pm - change
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haven't made a entry in here in about 2 months what i think im going to do is turn this in a real journal instead of a poem journal.
current mood:  tired
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| Friday, June 11th, 2004
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10:38 pm - I Wish
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I Wish
I wish the stars and moon were mine all mine.
Mine to love and care for.
I wish that I could be happy,
so happy I didn't need the stars and moon,
cuz I was content with me.
I wish I had someone to love,
someone to love me,
someone to care for.
I wish I dindn't care.
Care about the fights,
care about having someone to love,
because I loved me.
But how can I love me,
when all I do is Wish?
Wish for things to change,
so I wouldn't face this again.
face the pain and horror that come with every sun rise,
the pain pain that comes from lack of trust,
from the people I gave it all to.
I wish I could go back in time.
Change my past,
and make my future better,
so this pain would not be,
and I could just be happy with me.
more poems http://www.postpoems.com/members/boggyon03/
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10:35 pm - Crush
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Crush
As the bell rings I think of you.
Of that day we met,
in that store in the mall,
it was late and I was leaving,
but you knew my friends,
so you said hi.
I won't ever forget your smile,
it was warm and inviting.
Made me want to get to know you,
but Im too shy.
I now find myself staring,
staring at you.
Everytime I see you in the hall,
I can't help myself.
Your on my mind all the time,
even when your not around.
I find myself dreaming about you,
about what could be,
if we were a couple,
if we were like one.
How great it could be.
If only I could talk to you,
but Im just too damn shy.
I don't think I'll ever talk to you.
I might regret it one day,
as I dream of what could have been,
but for now I'll dream of what could be.
A house,
A home,
A place to call our own,
A family,
and Friends.
At that Im awaken from my dreams by the bell,
as everyone shuffles into the hallway.
I look for you,
for your warm inviting smaile that I love.
more of my poems http://www.postpoems.com/members/boggyon03/
current mood: tired
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| Friday, May 28th, 2004
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1:43 pm
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why is it that teachers and parents put so much stress on teenagers to figure out what they want to be when really a teenager is still a child. They are still a kid how are they gonna know what they want to be when they grow up. its like here you go pick out a job and a college from a hat and it will tell you how ur life is gonna be. Yet if a person actually knows what they want to do if it is not a grantee then their parents are going to try and talk them out of it. Its like "i want you too be happy, but i want you to be like me". its crazy make up your mind. either im gonna be happy doing what i want to do or im gonna want to die doing what you want me to do.
Cate
current mood:  cold
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1:42 pm - Another Day (poem)
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Another Day
Just another day,
In a life I don't like,
In a life I don't want.
I never asked for all this,
Its too much to handle.
This depression is too much,
to deal with,
too much to live with
more poems
http://www.postpoems.com/members/boggyon03/
current mood: cold
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| Wednesday, May 26th, 2004
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8:53 pm - Your Suicide Attempt (poem)
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Your Suicide Attempt
To say i have not loved,
is to say I have not felt,
but I have.
The day I heard I Cried,
oh did I cry.
To know you wanted to die,
made me want to die.
I couldn't belive you did that.
I fell into a depression,
a deep deep depression.
All I wanted to know, was why,
but I couldn't ask.
I couldn't talk about it,
if I did I would have fell apart.
No one knew,
I wouldn't let them know.
I kept it inside,
and let it eat me alive,
and eat me it did.
Until the day I caved,
and let it all out.
They all know now.
I feel better
Do you?
comment- last year a guy i knew slit his wrist trying to kill himself. him and i had a stressful relationship. we never went out but when he slit his wrist i felt to blame. now a year after it, I still haven't gotten over it, i don't know if i every will.
all my poems
http://www.postpoems.com/members/boggyon03/
Cate
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| Sunday, May 23rd, 2004
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8:56 pm - join
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8:42 pm - don't change (poem)
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Don't Change
Everything is moving to fast.
I can't take it,
I'm not ready.
I'm still that little girl,
playing in the mud,
playing pretend.
Lets play pretend again.
we'll prentend that things aren't changing,
that your not leaving.
Do you have too?
I just need one thing to stay the same
Can that be you?
comment- im kind of having issues with things changing most likely because its not changing for the better
more poems
http://www.postpoems.com/members/boggyon03/
current mood:  busy
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10:30 am - Away (poem)
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Away
This place is not were I want to be.
This place is not what I want to see.
This is not the air I want to breath,
or the water I want to drink.
If I could go I'd run.
run so far never to come back.
leave the pain and tourture behind.
forget the past,make my future,
Change it all, make it better,
but never forget the love I had,
the people I met.
Yet I still need to go,
far far away
more of my poems
http://www.postpoems.com/members/boggyon03/
current mood: tired
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| Saturday, May 22nd, 2004
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12:14 pm - happy poem
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happy
That boy over there,
the one who stares.
Thats the one for me.
The one one that will be,
my ever lasting love.
We will marry,
have a family.
Oh so happy we will be.
With our kids and our home.
No we won't bore,
cuz he will be mine,
and I will be his.
You wait and see.
How happy we will be.
comments- its a false happiness, a dream that will never be
more of my poems
http://www.postpoems.com/members/boggyon03/
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